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Posted: June 23, 2010 in Thoughts...

P6230024Mummy just found out another place or blogging space. Mummy just created http://ipeng2.blogspot.com. Now, Mummy got 2 blogging space, well just in case, if one got problem, then at least still have a back up.

Past few days, Mummy was busying fill in Mummy’s BlogSpot. If your dear Daddy, or Aunt Ika or Uncle Esiang forgot about Mummy’s space at MSN, at least still have this BlogSpot for both of you – Issac and Annabelle. Mummy will keep on writing.

P6230028Mummy had a very special and unforgettable during childhood time. I know I was very happy, but sometimes our memories will drift away as our age grow. Now, I can hardly remember where was the places that I went together with Mummy’s Mum ( that is your grandmother – which both of you do not have a chance to see ) and Dad, of course with your Aunt Ika and Uncle Esiang too. And, the pictures in my mind was so blur.

Mummy hope by this blog, both of you still will remember and recall whenever you see these.

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Mum In Memory…

Posted: June 7, 2010 in Thoughts...

I read Ika’s blog today. One of it really strikes my heart at the start as I thought it was her something like love story, eventually when I finished it, she is writing about Mum. And, the memories she had with her.

Out of four of us, I am the one who is not really close to Mum, because after my STPM, I straight away came to Kuala Lumpur and working already. Even, my STPM results too, is Mum who took it from my High School. Now, think back, I would never know what is her feelings that time. My results really no good. Out of 5 subjects, only Pengajian Am A, Mathematics E, and the rest subject Physics, Chemistry were R (half paper pass only) and Additional Mathematics is F which is Fail. Probably that point of time, she really feel sad… What kind of daughter am I huh?

Now, my turn becoming a Mother for 2 kids. It is really never an easy task to take on , and at that moments they are 4 of us. She is really a great Mum! One will never know how your mum feels at least when you become one. This is true and fact.

After reading Ika’s blog, really miss her very much, and really regret that I have know nothing about her at all all these while…

還記得嗎? – By Ika Too

月圓人團員的中秋剛過,
我突然想起了你……
或許該說,從沒忘記,
只是不願再次觸碰胸口的痛而已。
原本想在當天靜靜的完成想要說的話。
結果躲不過懶惰的使喚,還是偷懶去了。
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
曾經,我們是多麽的親密,
最喜歡把我的小手,牽著你溫暖的手,
過馬路也好……撒嬌也好……
就是喜歡感覺你的溫度。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
雖然,我們偶爾也會爭吵,
很快的,我們又會嘻嘻哈哈地……
好像,沒事兒一樣
我又成功的讓你開心了。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
青春期的我,
問了你一句話:假如,我拍拖了,你會怎樣?
你只是笑著說:那你的功課一定完蛋了~~
簡單的一句話,
卻是你對我的一種信任和窩心的話。
至今我都還沒有交往的對象。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
那一年,我們又激烈的爭吵了
你哭了,我也哭了。
我懊惱自己弄哭了我心愛的人,
雖然,那時候的我,
並不懂得如何愛惜我愛的人……
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
你不舒服~~是我們爭吵的那一次之後
我很害怕
暗地裏哭了,
我突然很害怕我會失去你
真的很害怕……很害怕……
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
我沒辦法控制我的淚腺
從那一刻起
我就不停的哭
我只能夠讓自己的淚干了
才能面對你說話。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
虛弱的你還擔心說
可能要花很多的費用呢~~
不懂事的我,不知費用有多大
我卻告訴你說別擔心,
大人們會搞定的。
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
當我望著你半清醒的模樣
說不出話的時候,
我的心被撕裂了~~
撕裂,心痛的感覺
我在當下都嘗盡了。
我只丟下一句‘振作點’就奔出門外
我崩潰了……
因為,我沒有辦法看著你痛苦的模樣
雖然,我應該說更多更多的話激勵你
不管你聽見或沒
嘿~~你還記得嗎?
陪你走過最後一段艱難的時間
也是我最煎熬難過的一天
因為,我沒有放棄過等待奇迹的心
也正如負面思想沒有抛下我一樣~~(矛盾)
直到心電圖顯示沒有了心跳,一切靜止了
你的手,沒有了溫度,
我才徹底的被撕裂了……
xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx xxx
當我以為我就快要忘了一切,
所有的畫面又浮現在我面前。
我並沒有忘記
一切的一切,都是我不想碰觸的傷口
難以抹煞的記憶。
如果,人類的記憶
如同電腦一樣,只需點擊一下就能清除掉,
很幹淨利落,不是嗎?
只可惜,我不是電腦。
所以,我沒辦法丟掉所有有關你的記憶
如同我沒能忘記如何呼吸。

W2W Talk: Hui Sing

Posted: June 6, 2010 in Thoughts...

Nowadays, seeing Hui Sing on Face book is very happy and delighted thing because it seems like she is very enjoying her life as an home maker and at the same time take care of her baby girl. So, drop her a mail seeking her advice like that if I would like to quit my current job, and join as a full time home maker or probably some other part time job…actually i would like to do my Pru Biz… if I am able to. My 2nd Quarter target have not reach yet, and I do not want to loose my licence. Emm… Sometimes when think of it, is very stressful thing…

q1701950220_9898 04 June at 15:56

woman, how u spend ur daily life as a home maker and mother ler? can roughly share with me your routine chores? Thinking of quitting my job and become a house wife la.
Working sometimes is tiring and stressful. Rushing between home and work and kids. can share with me your daily life?

23140_541877635_7149_q 04 June at 16:36

to b honest, sometimes i miss my working life. at least when I’m working, those time is really mine. when u accomplish some tasks, those satisfaction level is different. staying at home actually stress me up most of the time. 1st of all, i don’t have my own income, and my husband not giving me fix or monthly pocket money, i don’t have freedom when i wan to buy things. 2nd, staying at home really makes me feel really low self esteem, ppl will not really appreciate what u’ve sacrifice and do, they will think it’s what u "suppose to do", not mentioning tons of housework repeatedly same everyday, which makes me sick of it. 3rdly, my circle of frens really become very very small. i hardly have any fren to talk to, that’s why i hook up to fb very long hrs, just wan to get myself updated. nowadays i quit laundry, since my hb willing to pay for dobby fees, instead of giving me that part of $, i quit doing it. since he willing to pay to tabao food, i don’t really cook oso nowadays.
anyway, that’s how i feel lor.. probably i step into full time mom’s life too soon b4 i fully prepared. so u really have to mentally prepared first b4 u making that decision.
I’m not the type who has a fix schedule on doing things lar.. basically doing some housework, taking care of my girl, doing some online biz, do some craftwork.. like that lor.

q1701950220_9898 06 June at 14:28

Cheer up my dear fren. i always thinks that u r the best mum for your sweet little girl, can c it during the photos that u posted on fb. She learns things very fast.
Actually i think it is the same thing i feel all these while, that as a woman, it is what " u supposed to do" lor, even though rushing back from work, have to do the laundry, kids simple meals, bathing them, washing dishes, after when I’m bathing time will be around 10.00pm oredi. Time to let the kids sleep. It is really different between having kids and no kids life. Other than that, most of the time, my hubby is not at the house. Yet, he is very hygiene type of person, sometimes he come back will complaint say this not clean and that not clean enough…made me so frustrated. He din give me any monthly expanses and yet likes to complaint. Of course, all the household things, milks, pampers, instalments, day-care he pay la, I pay on our insurance, elec and astro bills, daily ‘market money’ for meals. Also, it seems like not much left in the pocket. Kids sometimes will sick, then my extra money gone…Last time, I used to ta bao too, but evertime when bringing the kids back to In Laws house at Kuching, u know la, she will start asking what are their grandchildren having everyday, etc. Then, I will start to feel guilty as both of my kids actually are smaller size compared to their actual age. Well, try to cook some soup and at least 2 times a week, at least they tasted mummy’s home cook. But, by looking at your photos, you are better cook than I do. Hahaha…
Probably the thinking of being full time house wife just ‘pop out’ in my mind, thinking of really tired of being employed and the salary is not increase and more responsibilities. Most of the time is fire fighting. Really mentally tiring apart from my ‘duty as a mother’. Really no time for myself lor. No more private time, sometimes just scribble something on my own blog, and that’s it, consider yes la.. Probably doing part time job is ok. Anyway have to earn my pocket money.Really don’t know… and this ideas had been stuck in my head for pass 6 months oredi. Just really have not decide anything yet, as I have current commitment to fulfil (my insurance, etc, …)
How’s your online biz, is it the handmade soap thing? U workout together with your frenz? At least, this is something u like rite?
Cheer up ya! And keep up the good work! Woman and great Mum!

q1701950220_9898 06 June at 17:28

U know what? This made me realize that every woman got their story and problems too… dealing with husband, kids, in-laws, siblings, etc. Sometimes, it is a bit difficult to advise as v all r not n their shoes. What v can do is support our dear frenz whenever they need it. Probably I would like to start with something small, and need to plan it out 1st. Thanks for your sharing and happy always and enjoy your life ya…

I guess every woman has their own story and own problems. So, in my case really have to keep it up and think of something out of it. Starting a small biz and at the same time doing my Pru Biz? With a little bit help from my dad? 1st thing 1st is what should I invest into? A little one will do…

Thoughts…

Posted: June 2, 2010 in Thoughts...

Myself Ika & Ipeng 1 Today, Belle is getting better. If there is no unforeseen circumstances, probably Mummy will start work on coming Thursday.

Actually, these few days is quite relaxed that I can do anything I want. It is really rest days for Mummy but my mind would not calm down when I sit down and starting to think about my future.

I am 35 this year. According to the palm reading which I did few years ago, this year will mark a change in my life…but I do not have any idea what will it be. Is it relating to the relationship? Or my own health? Or family? Or my career? Anything it is, I pray so that I can take it in calm and peace…

I do like this photo, so natural and three of us were so crazy…

Mummy’s Olympus FE-4030

Posted: May 30, 2010 in Thoughts...

Mummy initially wants to bring Issac and Annabelle to National Science Centre, unfortunately both of you sick. Issac is still ok, but Mummy suspected Belle not well yet. Tomorrow Mummy will have to bring Belle to consult Dr. Liew again.

frontInitially want to have Mummy’s Olympus FE-4030 do an ‘opening ceremony’ today at the National Science Centre. This camera is a trade-in offer for Mummy’s previous Olympus MJU-700 series – the existing LCD screen spoilt, needed RM306 for change, instead Mummy change for new about RM480 + 4GB SD card RM40. It comes in 4 colours: Grey, Pink, Blue and White. The available colours only Grey which is the one Mummy had, Pink and Blue which both colours aren’t Mummy favourite colours. Mummy bought it last week.

All these latest camera series do not have all weather proof feature, but the water proof and sock proof version of cameras are in another series – U tough.

Mummy is thinking of having a simple operated camera for writing blogs and take babies pictures only, thus this simple should be enough. After all, Mummy would not be using the camera during outdoor raining days, and most of all, Mummy will not going for overseas, mostly four seasons countries for time being, no need to hunt for an advance featured camera.

Here is Mummy’s new toy… and bringing together is new experiences and blogs…

Women On the Clock

Posted: December 1, 2009 in Thoughts...

God doesn’t give you the people you want; He gives you the people you NEED… to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

 

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Women have strengths that amaze men…..
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in..
They stand up to injustice.
They don’t take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours.
They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what
makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their
family and friends.
Women have vital things to say
and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

Childhood Is A …

Posted: November 28, 2009 in Thoughts...

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